Still.. Same old me is typing. This is the worst feeling, ever. Berawal karena pikiran anew yang di otak ini dan karena baca post beberapa orang kemarin yang sejujurnya gue lupa dengan nama mereka. Bad at names, sorry.
So this is it,
"Why are we doing this? Why are we still holding on to this? We got nothing but a dead end, have you ever think of that? Why are we still here, using the word forever even though deep down inside we knew that we're not going to make it? We're dealing with feelings, which can lead to some serious frustration and mood swings, or maybe can occur to any possible things. I know forever is a long time, but I'm just wishing that we're having and what we had could simply be the type of moments we both cherish and look up to. I wish the moments will last forever, in our memories. I don't know when, or how, but I'll be hating the time we finally say goodbye..." Ok, it's raining here, "...From the way I see it, it won't be us who will end this, but it is the fate. And all that. I wonder how it feels like to lose someone important like you. I've lost many, but I guess it'll be harsher than ever. Psst, I hate goodbyes, but I guess being realistic saves us all. I couldn't guarantee whether we'll stay friends..." what else, btw? "...or not, cause it's going to be awkward. I know we're going to get that one happy ending, both of us will.. You will be happy and have your dreams, with or without me. Sorry for being too pessimistic, but it's life that we're dealing with"
What are you thinking about this time?
I've told you a thousand times, there is nothing wrong with you. It's me. Would you tell me what to do? Tell me how should I be? I really wanna shake this feeling off. Just shake it off and all will be well.
Thank you for not leaving. Even I know, you are going to leave, soon.
"Mungkin kamu bicara sederhana tentang kita. Tapi aku, aku yang salah dari awal kita bertemu. Dan saat ini, aku membuatnya menjadi sulit dengan pikiranku yang rumit"
